It is okay to need gentleness.
If I wasn't consistently getting closer to being better, then I wasn't getting closer to being better at all.
Little t traumas happen all the time, and sometimes they can have a serious, lasting impact on who we are as people.
Having a shame-based personality means that, at my core, I truly believe that I am a bad, unlovable person.
Now I'm trying to embrace my dramatic and weird, trying to be myself, but I've spent so long hiding myself and shape-shifting for other people that I have no idea who that is.
Dissociation is a form of protection. We dissociate when our minds need to protect us from some aspect of our reality.
I'm a freezer. My brain has learned that fighting almost always makes the situation worse, and running betrays the panic I feel inside which could also make things worse, so I just freeze up.
I have always been a very sensitive person, and after years of hearing how my emotions were excessive or dramatic or “wrong,” I developed a coping mechanism: always be aware of how others are feeling.