We need change. This is non-negotiable.
It really is possible to distract yourself from your distress without falling into patterns of avoidance.
The PERMA model gives us ways to positively impact our psyches, to help us water and weed and love the garden of our minds.
Focus on recovery instead of validation through the exhibition of pain.
You aren't weak or bad or anything if stress triggers your symptoms.
Now I'm trying to embrace my dramatic and weird, trying to be myself, but I've spent so long hiding myself and shape-shifting for other people that I have no idea who that is.
I have a really hard time letting go of my excessive control over my impulses, and it makes it hard to just be a person.
Dissociation is a form of protection. We dissociate when our minds need to protect us from some aspect of our reality.
The thing about mental illness is that it can act like a giant magnet, completely skewing your internal emotional compass so that it's hard to distinguish between symptoms and regular emotions.
I'm grateful to my terrific therapist, my wonderful husband, my relentlessly supportive friends, and I'm grateful to myself, for doing this difficult work.