Enmeshment leads to a very unhealthy family dynamic where the family as a whole is only happy if each individual denies their needs.
I don't know how to hold my identity within myself. Instead, I draw it from others.
Having a shame-based personality means that, at my core, I truly believe that I am a bad, unlovable person.
Do I simply need to accept that this is adulthood and the holidays feel different on this side of 20? Or am I losing a magic worth fighting to save?