Dissociation is a form of protection. We dissociate when our minds need to protect us from some aspect of our reality.
I'm not trying to be a pessimist, I'm just trying to be prepared.
I'm with you in the painfully liminal space of recovery.
Just like how the lack of sunshine in the winter can mess with circadian rhythms and send people into a depression, the extra long days of summer can do the exact same thing.