I feel like my brain is just constantly processing and coping and that's great, really, my life is so much better now than it was five or even just one year ago because of this, but the result is just constant exhaustion.
How seriously are you supposed to take these kinds of thoughts when you know you don't really want to die, but at the same time, the idea of continuing to exist as your horrible self fills you with dread and rage?
When it comes to my anger, one of my best tools is actually Dungeons and Dragons.
You can sit wherever you want. No, really.
I'm with you in the painfully liminal space of recovery.
It's okay if it takes some time to figure out what's going on in your brain. Maybe if I tell you these things, I'll believe them too.
Sometimes I don’t hear what people actually say at all. All I hear what my internalized shame tells me they’re saying.
I'm so excited to make this post because I FINALLY found a way to move forward in recovery.
There are lots of other reasons people (including me) struggle to be honest in therapy, and I tried to address some of them at the beginning of this article, but the majority of it is focused on advice for moving forward and being as honest as you can be.
This week's article, Changing the Neural Pathways That Cause Suicidal Ideation, is all about those intrusive suicidal thoughts that you don't want to have, but just sort of...happen.