Healing is a complicated, twisted, painful, tender thing, and you are not doing it wrong, I promise.
Little t traumas happen all the time, and sometimes they can have a serious, lasting impact on who we are as people.
Having a shame-based personality means that, at my core, I truly believe that I am a bad, unlovable person.
Now I'm trying to embrace my dramatic and weird, trying to be myself, but I've spent so long hiding myself and shape-shifting for other people that I have no idea who that is.
Dissociation is a form of protection. We dissociate when our minds need to protect us from some aspect of our reality.