This month is Suicide Awareness Month, so I wrote a small piece about my experience with semi-suicidal thoughts on HealthyPlace: “I Don’t Want to Die, I Just Can’t Keep Living Like This.” This is a pretty common experience for me, and it’s confusing as hell. I mean, how seriously are you supposed to take these kinds of thoughts when you know you don’t really want to die, but at the same time, the idea of continuing to exist as your horrible self fills you with dread and rage? I still don’t really know the answer, to be honest. But I have found a few ways to cope with it, and I think that’s the most important thing, because it means that I’m safe, even when these thoughts consume me.
If you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts or semi-suicidal thoughts and you aren’t sure if you’re safe, please call 9-1-1 right away or find safe transportation to your local emergency room. If you need someone to talk to but don’t feel safe or comfortable reaching out to people you know in real life, please contact a mental health resource or crisis line. Stay safe friends ❤