Despite being in diagnosis limbo, it’s fairly obvious to me and my mental health team that depression is an issue for me. So much so, that my current therapist would like to make Major Depressive Disorder one of my primary diagnoses. The issue is, I don’t fit the criteria exactly. Because of my history with misdiagnosis, I’m hesitant to accept any new diagnosis, especially when I don’t fit the criteria to the letter, and I definitely don’t fit the precise criteria for Major Depressive Disorder. However, that may not be because I don’t have it. I’ve been working to improve my mental health for five years now, and as a result, my depression looks different than it used to when it went untreated. This makes diagnosis a bear, but it can also feel kind of invalidating. I mean, is it really depression if the episode only lasts two days? (Hint: yes). It’s taken me quite a while to realize that depression in recovery looks different from untreated depression, and I thought other people might be a bit lost as well, so I wrote a piece for HealthyPlace exploring the topic: 6 Ways Depression in Recovery Looks Different from Untreated Depression. If you’re feeling weird about your depression as you recover and improve, check it out, and know that you definitely aren’t alone. I’m with you in the painfully liminal space of recovery.