Neural pathways and suicidal ideation
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Tackling Chronic Suicidal Ideation on HealthyPlace

So my lastest article for HealthyPlace isn’t exactly a light-hearted beach read, but I do think it’s important. This week’s article, Changing the Neural Pathways That Cause Suicidal Ideation, is all about those intrusive suicidal thoughts that you don’t want to have, but just sort of…happen. Because it’s such a sensitive topic and tends to make people very uncomfortable, I’ve never actually discussed this much in real life, so I have no idea if these are actually universal experiences, or just a quirk of my weird brain. But it makes sense to me: when you are genuinely suicidal, it forms a scar in your brain that creates a neural pathway. Later, when you are faced with hardship, challenges, or even just change, your brain retreats to its most basic processes and falls back on the deepest, most powerful neural pathways. Suicide is rather intense and frightening, so I think it becomes a very powerful neural pathway, so naturally, it crops up from time to time, even if you don’t want to die in the slightest.

Who knows, maybe this is just a me thing, but I have a feeling it isn’t. If you can relate, and you feel comfortable, feel free to leave a comment letting me know. It would be comforting to learn that I’m not alone.

*** Although this piece is not graphic, I still want to put out a
general content warning for the discussion of suicidal ideation. ***

2 thoughts on “Tackling Chronic Suicidal Ideation on HealthyPlace”

  1. I just discovered your blog and I have to say, I can relate so much to your daily struggles. I also wrestle with suicidal ideation (and have been doing so for quite a long time), emotional hypervigilance, and days when my brain just refuses. to. work. I have a hard time getting out of bed every day because I know that, at least in part, it’s going to be the same as the day before that and the day before that. But it’s encouraging to know that other people, like you, have the same issues, and that I’m not alone. Thank you for writing and please keep doing so! You inspired me today. 🙂

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    1. Really?? I’m so glad. I’m sorry you experience these things too, but I’ve never really met anyone who can relate to my day-in and day-out struggles that are just so ill-defined. I don’t have a diagnosis as of right now, which is driving me crazier and making me feel super alone. So thank you so much for this comment, you also inspired me today ❤

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