So my lastest article for HealthyPlace isn’t exactly a light-hearted beach read, but I do think it’s important. This week’s article, Changing the Neural Pathways That Cause Suicidal Ideation, is all about those intrusive suicidal thoughts that you don’t want to have, but just sort of…happen. Because it’s such a sensitive topic and tends to make people very uncomfortable, I’ve never actually discussed this much in real life, so I have no idea if these are actually universal experiences, or just a quirk of my weird brain. But it makes sense to me: when you are genuinely suicidal, it forms a scar in your brain that creates a neural pathway. Later, when you are faced with hardship, challenges, or even just change, your brain retreats to its most basic processes and falls back on the deepest, most powerful neural pathways. Suicide is rather intense and frightening, so I think it becomes a very powerful neural pathway, so naturally, it crops up from time to time, even if you don’t want to die in the slightest.
Who knows, maybe this is just a me thing, but I have a feeling it isn’t. If you can relate, and you feel comfortable, feel free to leave a comment letting me know. It would be comforting to learn that I’m not alone.
*** Although this piece is not graphic, I still want to put out a
general content warning for the discussion of suicidal ideation. ***